It's a new day for *Pickles*

She's made it through another night! I've made some minor changes for her. First being I've turned off the Koralia 240 that's placed on the back wall. No sooner was it off and she was swimming like a the lil champ she is. I think I can do with just the Mp10 for a while.
Yesterday I ordered some Nutramar Ova from DF&S and it's already here! So having gotten advice from ORA, here's how I've set it up for her. I've taken a small glass jelly jar, placed a nice size chunk of Ova in and have placed it in the tank where she hangs out most, (Just so happens it's right in front) where I can watch her all the time.
So at this very moment as I'm writing this I'm sitting her watching her. She is face to face with the jar. I'm just waiting for her to go in........come on baby!!! Goooooo! She's got to be smelling it right? Can she see it? Noooo don't go around the jar go in!! Please!!! Should I give her a little nudge? Well here comes a snail out with a nice lil chunk, UGH!!!
Buying this lil fish in the manner in which I have. Has opened up a whole new world of fish keeping for me. Never before have I bought a captive bread aquacultured fish. Having spoken with ORA like I have ( a lot ) I've come to the conclusion that.....these lil fish come about as close to **** as a fish can get without getting killed. That it's only when they enter our tanks that their lives truly become jeopardized!
Here's why I say this. These fish are born into a world without coral, rock, substrate of any kind and no other fish outside of their own kind. Raised for 6 months on 2 types of food. In the case of an ORA fish they are fed, New Life Spectrum Pellets and Nutramar Ova. (damn she almost when in)
Then these fish are sold to a local (or more so not so local) seller. Who then decides that it's cheaper to feed them frozen. But they don't eat! Oh they may take a nip out of desperation but not enough to sustain them.
Then someone such as myself comes along having wanted such a fish for so very long. Does what she thinks is right by buying a CB instead of a wild caught. Trusting the seller wholeheartedly. (dang darlin quit looking and go in) I buy the fish!
The fish arrives looking like a concentration camp survivor! How can she still be alive? She's so freaking skinny!! UGH! So I acclimate the fish for 3 hours. I am target feeding the fish what the seller says to feed the fish. Frozen baby brine shrimp and frozen chopped blood worms. But she's not eating!
So now I panic! I get on email to the seller a.s.a.p. asking why would you send me a fish in this condition? It's all their fault!!! (go go go in to the jar SHE'S IN THE JAR!! But not touching the Ova) We've talked and they'll replace the fish if she dies. No problem!
But I can't stop thinking about how and why she came to be in this condition in the first place. I am racked with guilt. My heart hurts for it's suffering. Am I to blame? All I can do now is try and make her the best home possible. Keeping in mind where she's come from. What it must be like to be thrown into a tank with things she's never encountered!
I don't regret getting her!!! She's a tough lil bugger this *Pickles*. She's once again in the jar and I can only pray she eats. I figure if it wasn't me, maybe someone else not so caring would have gotten her and not tried as hard as I am, at giving her a chance to live. I know in my heart she would surely have perished at the Pet Store.